Been a while

It's been a while since I last posted, so it's definitely time for an update.

I started youtube again, I decided it was better to have it and enjoy doing it, than to not have it because of people who like to annoy me. With youtube's new detection, it'll be a simple matter of filtering out comments that contain key phrases that would be offensive and counter-productive.

Poker night will be coming back as well as Hanging with Jaden, and Rants With Jaden. I will also be live streaming games, though I am unsure when this will take place.

Time wasted, yet again.

So, I started revitalizing my old paranormal forum, only to find that half the initial members only joined either out of curiosity of who was on it already, or just to make me feel better (but aren't going to say that).
I'm sick and tired of wasting my time on stuff that has absolutely no positive result, based on the word of people who don't even care about it to begin with!
And just now, one person is telling me I need more confidence! It's not about my confidence, my confidence is what gets me to start these things to begin with, it won't solve the real problem, which is people not taking me seriously, people with hidden intentions, and people who on joined because they know me, but aren't remotely interested in participating.

From now on, I'm not going to bother with this stuff anymore. If people were even half as serious about it as I have been for this past 2 years, it would've taken off very well, but that's not the case so there's little point in continuing the same old shit expecting something to change.
The facts are: I'm a nobody, everything I do will always be ignored, and neither of those facts will ever change so there's no point in having any faith that they will.

Tetravex

Here's an old puzzle game I used to play all the time. Enjoy!

Instructions:
Match each number so they all correspond with an adjacent tile.
Example:

7 must always match with another 7, while a 4 on the same tile must match up with another 4 on another tile.

  6     8
2+4 4+4
  7     9
  7     9
1+6 6+5
  2     8

Game Name:Tetravex	play Tetravex game on full screen
more flash game codes for blogs

I've reached the point where I'm going to be abrasive, like it or not.

I've reached my limit of tolerance of people and their stupidity. If I seriously am going to be insulted by people who later save face and ultimately face no real consequences, after clearly breaking forum rules (by saying that's not what they meant to do, even though it's blatently obvious), then I'm not going to give a shit what anyone says, I'm going to bite back, and It's not going to be all roses and wine. I'm so sick of being stepped on in that fuck-heap of a forum and then having the mods get in my face because I stood up for myself and won't put up with it. If they want to ban me for speaking out against such bullshit, then they're free to do so, but you can bet your ass I will take action if they do.

This is the second time they've done this, and frankly I'm tired of everyone making it as if I'm the one in the wrong when I didn't even start the whole mess to begin with!

I'm seriously evaluating whether or not I should even remain on that forum at this point.

A comic that I do every now and then to express my opinion:

Stop Interupting My Livestreams!!

Every single time I try to livestream anything, I'm interupted somehow, especially when I flat out say "hey, I'm going live". It's always the same old thing, people walking in without following the guidelines I've laid out and are also pinned to my door in plain sight, being recruited (told to do something for them) while in the middle of the stream, or just flat out unable to continue the stream from that point because of some other reason that they give.

It's way beyond old and it needs to stop (though it never will). At this point I have to conclude that they're blocking me intentionally. The main person doing it has always had issues with me doing anything live due to their own paranoia (and yes, it is paranoia because their reasoning is that someone that disagrees with me might try to find and harm me, which has a 1 in a trillion chance of actually happening, especially since my material is ignored by 99% of the people who watch material on youtube and twitch).

Those of you who are reading this and saying "oh, just tell them how you feel about it", just to let you know, I have. It makes no difference what I say, or what signs I put up in plain sight, they still interupt me. I tell them I'm going live, and regardless of whether or not they know, they still interupt in the middle of the livestream.

I've done everything I can do, short of baracading my door shut, to keep this from happening and yet it still continues. And then people wonder why I have to do stuff at night, it's because I can't do anything during the day without being constantly interupted right in the middle of it.

I'm seriously about ready to buy a nail lock or something for the door so that they can't open it while i'm live, at least then they'd get the idea that I'm tired of putting up with it.

What makes it worse, is the few people who do tune into my livestreams, then have to deal with a muted mic and an unspecified amount of silence and inaction.

It's unprofessional, it makes me look bad to my audience, and I could easily lose new subscribers/viewers because of it.

Finally got to relax a bit today.

Today wasn't too bad, I actually did get a little bit done and I was able to relax a bit. People were texting me quite a bit toward the end of the evening though, so I kind of ignored them in favor of a stressless night. I don't mind talking to people every now and then, but sometimes I have to relax and ignore the world (with an exception or two ;) you know who you are). And now, I'm relaxed, comfortable and rested.